Voice Out

Hi there...I lost my voice! Probably because my body too heaty..coughing quite badly too. Well, but God healed me of my multiple ulcers and rashes last Sunday, I'm sure He can restore me again this time.
Well, God has been speaking to me very specifically and clearly these few days. 1st was that I must not allow anything negative feeling come in between and rob me of my love for Him. He asked me: "Is it worth it to hold on to all these and let these things block you from loving me freely?"
2nd time was that He asked me very specifically: "Shujun, do you love failure or do you love me?" It was just like Jesus asking Peter: "Peter, do you love me more than these things?" All these had been a preoccupation with myself, my own world of so called sorrow, my own failures. You see, when you love something, you give your entire mind, heart, strength and energy to it. When I 'love' my failures, I give all my attention on it, it becomes my reference point of decisions and my basis of coming before the Lord. And when this happens, I am unable to give God the desired attention and unable to make Him my reference point in life. Its really a revelation to me! Lord, thank you! That has caused me to decide in my heart to let go of everything...the 'love' of my failures. I do not want to dwell in them any longer. God remembers our sins no more!
Today Nick and I prayed together again...God reminded me of this verse in Hosea 6:6- "I"I don't want your sacrifices- I want your love; I don't want your offerings- I want you to know Me."
Thank you Lord!!!!