Word of God

"The truth is, when you were young, you were able to do as you liked and go wherever you wanted to. But when you are old, you will stretch out your hands, and others will direct you and take you where you don't want to go." - John 21:18

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Frustration. Unable to communicate exactly. Need a hole to hide. Not negative, just appreciates understanding and rest. Withdrawal symptoms. Do not disturb. Everything's gonna be alright shuch.

Wonder why it's mennick?

Me and Nick

The Rain

It started to rain. I'm wanting to wait for the rainbow...how about you?

I'm held by Your love
Upheld by Your strength
On Your shoulders You bore me
By Your faith I stand

Cherished by You Lord
Treasured in Your sight
So close to Your heart
Held firm in Your hand

So awesome is Your love
So mighty is Your hand
On eagle's wings, You carried me
Your grace shall be my strength
So perfect is Your love
You sacrificed Your Son
Amazing love reached down to me
With joy to You I come

Not by my wisdom
Not by my strength
Gently You guide me
Lead me by hand
Total surrender
Jesus I am Yours
Now and forever
In Christ I now stand

I shall wait...patiently, with hope.

I like that song- Because You Loved Me

Hear the song playing in my blog now? Well, thanks to Daphne!
Anyway, this song ministers to me really very deeply. Here are the lyrics-

You're my God
You're my Lord
You're my everlasting song
I was lost but now am found
All because You cared for me
For the love
For the cross
For the way You hold me close
Lord I give unto You
All that You've given unto me

Chorus:
I want to be a light that shines Your name
I want to tell the whole world of Your fame
I want the whole wide world to know
How You've given up Your all
Just to bring me back to You again
I don't care what the world may say of me
I only know that You have set me free
I know I'll never be alone
I am never on my own
I will strive to run this race always
Because You loved me

Yes Lord, I will run this race...with my eyes fixed and I do not want to let anything come and cause me to waver!

Voice Out

Hi there...I lost my voice! Probably because my body too heaty..coughing quite badly too. Well, but God healed me of my multiple ulcers and rashes last Sunday, I'm sure He can restore me again this time.
Well, God has been speaking to me very specifically and clearly these few days. 1st was that I must not allow anything negative feeling come in between and rob me of my love for Him. He asked me: "Is it worth it to hold on to all these and let these things block you from loving me freely?"
2nd time was that He asked me very specifically: "Shujun, do you love failure or do you love me?" It was just like Jesus asking Peter: "Peter, do you love me more than these things?" All these had been a preoccupation with myself, my own world of so called sorrow, my own failures. You see, when you love something, you give your entire mind, heart, strength and energy to it. When I 'love' my failures, I give all my attention on it, it becomes my reference point of decisions and my basis of coming before the Lord. And when this happens, I am unable to give God the desired attention and unable to make Him my reference point in life. Its really a revelation to me! Lord, thank you! That has caused me to decide in my heart to let go of everything...the 'love' of my failures. I do not want to dwell in them any longer. God remembers our sins no more!
Today Nick and I prayed together again...God reminded me of this verse in Hosea 6:6- "I"I don't want your sacrifices- I want your love; I don't want your offerings- I want you to know Me."
Thank you Lord!!!!

Heaven is our eternal home!

Blenheim left..to be with the Lord, in our eternal home. His family need our prayers, for their emotional, mental, physical and spiritual being. Also for financial help because I guess the medical bills must have cost them a lot.
My heart is excited. After the prayer meeting...I felt such an encouragement and strengthening from the Lord. There's freedom in my heart, to love Him, to love others!

Thoughtful

Work has been tiring...cos I had to co-ordinate some purchases for madam, and the date line is this Fri! I wonder how to do it....
Everyone at work is asking me about my ulcers and if I'm ok. Suddenly I felt so cared for and important. First phonecall in the morning was from my taitai colleague, asking me if I was better and making sure I followed her direction on the chinese medicine. Thank God for all these people!
I went to Nick's place to pray...it was good. I think he can mininster in music and worship very well. The presence of God was in his room as he played the guitar and we worshipped, prayed and I cried together. Wow..thanks Nick!!! We also watched the City Harvest service...ministered by this song:

Lost in You alone
That's where I wanna be
To hear Your voice
Softly in my ears
You whisper words to me
That I am Yours

Can't live a day without Your presence
Closer to You I wanna be

My soul cries out
For more of You, My Lord
My portion and hope
I close my eyes
And feel You near
There's nobody else
That can take Your place
In my heart

Ya, think the Lord reminded me about Zaccheus, the tax collector. He wanted to see Jesus, he wanted to experience Him, he wanted to personally meet with Him. But probably because of his reputation with people, his misdeeds in the past and he probably think he can't change and therefore was afraid to meet with Jesus, to request to talk to Him personally. I think I'm like Zaccheus. I have fears and hesitations in me, memories hound me, negativity keeps me down. Wanting to be with Jesus yet held back by all these...similar to Zaccheus. Lord, take away the hinderances...

Miracle!!!!

Blenheim is still alive! At the 3rd attempt to resacitate him today, He pulled through! Don't ask me how...It's God. But he is in critical condition. Let's uphold him in prayer christians. He will be a walking testimony of God's miraculous healing! Amen!

Goodbye Blenheim

Blenheim has left us to be with the Lord yesterday. A fine young man of 19 years, bright and active, a good friend from what I know through Lionel, still in the midst of discovering what life is all about.....This entire incident has thought me many things, even though I have not been directly involved in it.
Truely souls are so important. Yes though the bible teaches that but how many really grapple with the real meaning and is able to live a life that displays that? Souls come and go, passerbys of our lives, colleagues whom we might get irritated at, parents whom we try many times to avoid talking to, siblings whom we will always squabble with, friends whom we fail to encourage or even to accept many times. Lord, I have learned. These are the people in our lives you've called us to demonstrate Your love to.
Just last night I was asking the Lord why did things happen this way? A person who walked out of his walk with the Lord can get straight As for his A levels, Blenheim whom we have been praying for over the whole week just left...Lord my human mind cannot understand. But one thing I know is that You are a God who is in control, even when things right now don't seem to make sense to me, I believe in due time, things will be able to reconcile in the hearts of many who think like me. Lord...so that all may know that You are God!

You are not a god
Created by human hands
You are not a god
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a god
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, that’s just the way it is

Chorus:
You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
You are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone
You’re the only God
Whose power none can contend
You’re the only God
Whose name and praise will never end
You’re the only God
Who’s worthy of everything we can give
You are God
And that’s just the way it is

Bridge:
Unchangeable
Unshakable
Unstoppable
That’s what You are

Some pics....

Shuhui's birthday

Deeze & Shuch

The Work of God

Today I broke a record....altogether 5 ulcers! I'm struggling to talk properly le now...haiz. Anyway, it was quite a day for me. This morning I was confronted by someone- God. There's something in my heart that is uncomfortable, tugging...I had this same feeling last week also. I can literally feel God's work in my heart....it's something quite haunting, especially when you don't really wanna talk about it....He will bring it right at your face and say :"Hey, look at it...don't run away.." Ya, anyway...I'm very ministered by this song...

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!""You'll never win!"

Chorus:
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!""You'll never win!"
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Let's help....

Hey everyone out there who is readin my blog, please help. We've got a friend who is in coma right now due to a blood clot in his brain and has undergone an operation but it was not successful (Read www.lioneltock.blogspot.com for more info) and now he is awaiting for another operation next Monday. We need blood! Any type will do...please help. He is right now in NUH, fighting for his life. His family and close friends have been sticking real close with him, in prayer, in action. Christians, let's pray.